"...longing for the future [is] as antilife as dwelling in the past ("nostalgia and hope stand equally in the way of authentic experience")" Jitterbug Perfume, by Tom Robbins, p. 299
minute by minute the jet stream of my life
slices through the clear blue sky
above, around, ahead and behind me.
"carpe diem"
"the power of now"
a million best sellers in the life business
telling and teaching me how to be happy
but have they any experience with this
this...rediculous power you have over me
to tear me to shreds with a glance
an unspoken thought
a half a breath
who are you that my life -
my AMAZING life - pales when
not shared with you
Oh....I have been so happy without you
and I long to be at peace inside myself
once and for all
to know
once and for all
to feel and see and hear
once and for all
but always there is the cacophony of unsaid thoughts
that threaten to perforate my brain
leaving me scrambling to gather the pulpy mess off the floor
and put it back where it belongs
but it never goes back where it came from
and I am constantly trying to hold it all in
to hold it all together
in the now
my now
without you
looking back through the haze and hurts of yesterday
and hoping against hope that maybe
this time
everything will right itself
and the power of love and trust and honour and truth
will wash away the stains
and heal my head
I long for peace
for an end to my questions
to sleep and dream and wake up well
to seize each day
with
or without
you.
This makes me long for love...
ReplyDeleteto seize each day for your self is a great thing to share that with another even better as long as the other shares as well
ReplyDeletelooking back through the haze and hurts of yesterday
ReplyDeleteand hoping against hope that maybe
this time
everything will right itself
and the power of love and trust and honour and truth
will wash away the stains
and heal my head
I long for peace
for an end to my questions
to sleep and dream and wake up well
to seize each day
with
or without
you.
Beautifully written. I long for these things as well...
Your pained glance wounds deeper
ReplyDeleteThan the swords of mine enemies
Yet your adoring eyes
Soothe, heal & renew me
In ways that challenge
The magic of the universe
Seize each day for yourself
And know I am with you each day.
The power of love, trust, honour & truth
Has washed the stains and healed my head
A haze of hurts of yesterday
Distant in the gallop of the now
With the scent of love, peace and comfort
Lingering on the wind streaming
Over the mountains from the future
May future glances carry you
Healing, hope and joy
Bringing true peace and comfort
To seize each day
Sleep, dream and wake up well.